Hello Boys and girls, now normally I don't do this sort of thing, but I figure, what the hell, so, without further adeu (probably spelled that wrong):

Natural Hair Color:
[] Black = $100
[ ] Blonde = $50
[ ] Red = $75
[x] Brown = $15
[ ] Bald = $5
[ ] Other=$2

Total: $15

Eye Color:
[x] Brown - $150
[ ] Green - $75
[ ] Blue $50
[ ] Hazel $100
[ ] Other - $15

Total so far: $165

Height:
[ ] Over 7' - $200
[ ] 6'8" to 7' - $175
[x] 6'0" to 6'7" - $150
[] 5'5" to 5'11" - $75
[ ]4'9" to 5'4" - $50
[ ] Under 4'9 - $45

Total so far: $315
Age:
[ ] 41 to 50 - $150
[ ] 31 to 40 - $100
[ ] 26 to 30 - $75
[x ] 21 to 25 - $50
[ ] 19 to 20 - $25
[] 0 to 18 - $100

Total so far: $365

Birth Order:
[ ] Twins or more than twins - $300
[x] First Born - $300
[ ]Only Child - $250
[ ] second born - $150
[ ] Middle child - $100
[ ] Last Born - $200
[ ] third born - $100
[ ] fourth born - $100
[ ] fifth born-$375

Total so far: $665

Drink?
[] No - $400
[ ] Only Holidays - $250
[x] Sometimes - $215
[ ] YES - $200
[ ] only weekends - $300
[ ] Every other day - $50
[ ] Once a day - $15
[ ] I live from the bottle

Total so far: $880

Vision?
[ ] perfect vision $300
[x] need or have glasses/contacts but don't wear them $200
[ ] No correction $100
[] Glasses $50
[] contacts $25
[ ] Surgical correction -$1080

Total so far: $965

Car Color [or family's car(s)]:
[ ] White - $2,000
[ ] Maroon - $800
[] Gold - $700
[ ] Gray - $600
[x ] Blue - $900
[ ] Pink - $475
[ ] Black - $450
[ ] Red - $400
[ ] Green- $350
[ ] Silver $300
[ ] Purple- $250
[ ] Metallic - $200
[ ] Yellow - $100
[ ] Primer - $75
[ ] Tan- $20
[ ] Rusted - $15
[ ] No Car - $0

Total score: $1980

Shoe Size:
[ ] 13+ - $300
[ ]12 and a half to 13 - $250
[x] 11 to 12 - $700
[] 7 to 10 - $600
[ ] Under 7- $550

Total so far: $ 2680

Favorite Colors (three):
[x] Green-$750
[x] Black - $600
[x] Red - $800
[ ] Yellow -$475
[ ] Brown - $50
[ ] Purple - $225
[x] White - $400
[ ] Aqua - $350
[ ] Orange - $300
[x] Blue - $300
[ ] Pink - $100
[ ] Other - $ 50

Total so far: $5630

Did you use a calculator to add it all up?
[ ] Yes $0
[x ]No-add $1000
[ ] on some- $750

Total so far: $6630

how many people are you going to tag?
[ ] 91-150 = 250,000
[ ] 71 -90 = $100,000
[ ] 51 -70 = $50,000
[ ] 31 - 51 = $10,000
[ ] 21 - 30 = $5,000
[ ] 11 - 20 = $1,000 (I'll tag my buddies only...mah too lazy)
[ x] 1 - 10 = $500

See How Much You're Really Worth!

Total so far : $ 7230

now add your number of pageviews 2,061

Total: $ 9,291

Hah! and I keep telling people I wasn't a cheap date, so there you have it, bust out those pocket books

Ladies and Gentlemen, how long it's been since last I did...well...anything with this DA account of mine, sad I know, but today I think I'll change things up just a tad by at least updating my journal, please, hold the applause
So I don't know how well you folks out there know about dream interpretation but here's one for you; this morning I woke up to the sound of a telephone going off, but before that this was the dream:

I was in the basement of an older house, the basement was partially flooded and I was helping to clear a few things out, and along the way I and others kept finding what I knew to be ancient greek relics and artifacts, yet the strange thing of it was, they looked as though they were just made or brand new, but I also knew that was impossible, yet when I looked at them, and held them in my hands, I knew they weren't fake, I just somehow knew and I was awed by the beauty and craftsmanship of the artifacts. Truly a curios thing that I feel I shall ponder upon for the day, and if any of you kind people out there would like to offer your thoughts, opinions, and whathaveyou, I would be more then eager to hear them.

Also I would like to say I am sorry to those friends of mine that get this, for having become somewhat of a ghost these last few months; I fear that between my responsibilities of two jobs and a few other trying responsibilities I have shut myself off and become rather solitary, so if I have caused any concern or frustration, I most sincerely appologize, and I wish you all the best.

Hey everyone, been doing alot of thinking since the last time I put anything up here, heh yeah I know I do alot of thinking not alot of actions, but eh, what can I say? I go at my own pace. Been doing alot of reading, studying, heh listening, and something always seemed to just be beyond my understanding, you ever have that feeling that you have so many ideas about a similar thing yet can't find just the right thing to bridge it all together? well I've been on the subject of faith and religion for quite a while now and been putting it to some great thought, especially since the story that I'm tinkering with has alot to do with the views and ideas and ideals of religion and the afterlife and all those things...

Now another quandery to put to you fine educated folk, have you ever had a moment, out of nowhere, it could be related to the thoughts in your head, it again could be something completely different, yet it's just the right thing that sets off the sparkers in your head to spook the gerbil on the wheel to get it spinning? Well I was watching Highlander: The Search for Vengeance, a new spin on the franchize with an anime twist, but there was something in there that made me realize something about well..life in general. You see, I've always felt that when one passes away, the very core, essence, soul, whatever you want to call it, is given a choice, a choice they might not even be aware of and it happens in an incalculable amount of time for when one passes beyond the physical, what does time matter? That is a mortal concern is it not? In any event, I believe that we are all given the choice and chance to move on, to begin a new life, a new experience, and while from the flesh and all that ties into it we are different from what we once were, but within us, our souls, our essences, remain the same, which is why I believe a piece of who/what we once were comes with us, each time. The best way I guess I can put it is in this phrase:

The body is finite, but the spirit is eternal

And thus, at least, I believe, we move on from life to life, experiencing different facets and opportunities life has to bring and playing the roles fate has for each of us, for ultimately, even those who say they forge their own fate, are in fact playing a role, for yes I believe everything is goverened by choice, but whatever that choice may be, can lead to what we are fated to do, or not and that task is left unfinished and I believe also when we pass from the flesh we realize this, and those who have done what they were meant to do, or have not but accept the fact that they failed, can move on to try again, while those who cannot let go are doomed to remain, thus you have ghosts. Now I could be talking out of my ass, or rambling on and on about something I believe, but it is something I believe, true to my core, that each of us is meant brought to the life and world and experience what we experience because we are meant to do something; learn from those experiences and move on, taking that understanding and knowledge with us as we pass on, thus evolving who we truly are at our very core. Ultimately? To What purpose do thus? Mayhaps our spirits continue on this timeless trek of understanding and expansion so that perhaps one day, we can evolve beyond the elaborate chessboards of fate and those faceless beings that watch as we move ourselves across the board, watching to see what the outcome of existance itself may become.

Now this journal was not meant to insult or offend anyone, but if anyone out there who reads this feels that it has in any way, then I appologize, it was, as religion at its basis is meant to be, an idea, a thought, as ever changing as the skies above us or the seasons of the world. Now to those who feel I have done them harm, I then ask you to look within yourselves, and find the truth for yourselves, for we are only sheep if we let ourselves be. We have minds and wills of our own, and thus the power to choose for ourselves what we wish to believe or not believe, and anyone who says otherwise is far more the fool then one who speaks their mind and finds he was wrong, for the way I see it, if someone is wrong, there is no reason to chastize that one, for while he/she/they might have made a wrong decission, the important thing is they took it upon themselves to make a choice, and that is one of mortal man's ultimate gifts: the power to choose, and that is at the very core of all others: the choice to be kind or cruel, the choice to wage war or make peace, the choice to believe in something greater then oneself or not to...the choice to love, or to hate...the choice to forgive, or condemn.

I leave these words for those who will read them to think on, and if any of you think I'm a ranting fool, please feel free to say so, but please, think that only if you choose to think it, and not think that only because of what you were raised to believe or told to believe by others.

Hey everyone. Long time no see ey? Hm. It's been a long time since I've done anything here, and even longer since I've seen alot of you all. That's been a huge mistake on my part, I've missed you all, very much. I try to keep tabs on what's been going on though I'll admit my information isn't always top notch. As for myself....well....been going through quite a bit over these last few months....gone through a job that fell through, been working at Borders which has been fun. Went through a car accident or 2...had to take my car in again for it seemed once again, my car was leaking gasoline, only this time it was leaking onto the engine itself. Yes, can we say flamable problems? I was lucky, either that or my guardian angel is working overtime to keep my ass alive. Maybe fate ain't done with me yet, I don't know.

I've been trying to get back into writing, though I gotta admit, finding the drive to write is quite different from the ability to do so. But oh well, doesn't mean one can't try...right? Aside from that...I've been going through alot, coming to understand alot of things, coming to learn not to take things or people for granted...funny how the most important lessons you learn are often times learned through the most painful means. For me, it had to come to losing someone very dear to me, and running the risk of getting myself blown up. Though now, I have something else to contend with: Loss. As of a few hours ago, my grandmother, one of the kindest and sweetest women I've ever known, who visited all the time when I was growing up and did her best to be a great influence on me, died a few hours ago after having a stroke. The paramedics tried to bring her back, but she was gone...may she finally find peace after all these long, agonizing years of suffering. I can only imagine how my mother is taking it, for she was there and saw her at the hospital, while I, on the other hand, have the memory of when I last saw her, lying in her bed, muscles all but gone, skin hanging off her bones, unable to leave her bed or move unassisted...slowly wasting away....that's how I and all who knew her have seen her for the last few years...for her, the last 10 years of her life was, I have no doubt, a living and terrifying hell. But now, if fate be kind and if their is a Heaven, she is there right now, finding peace finally. This I hope and pray for more then anything else.

As for the family...well...the best we can hope for is to put aside our collected differences for just one last time and be there for one another, if for anything else, for my grandmother and my grandfather, who, to me, is the prime example of what loving devotion is. He truly did everything he could for his wife, he loved her so that he put no care to himself except for what was needed. He truly did everything humanly possible for her, because she was his wife and he loved her, more then his own life, and now, she's gone, and the sad truth is, she's been slipping away for a very, very long time, which to me is far more agonizing than anything else in this world.

Well...there it is..I hope everyone is well, and may the fates be kind everyone. Take care of yourselves.

Hello and greetings everyone!!!

hard to imagine another year has come and quite nearly fully gone. So much has happened no? Well, as for yours truly things have been pretty busy, crowds upon crowds of people storming the store like waves upon a turbulent shore, crashing against the rocks, never ebbing, but never truly stopping. But hey that's a good thing, means more work and $$$ heh. but unfortunately it seems that the route of illness has caught up with me finally....first mom, then dad, now me. joy. oh well, better now then on christmas I suppose. So how's everyone else doing? Hope everyone has alot of fun over the holiday!!

oh, minor sidenote, I have a commission in mind to anyone and everyone who might be interested, there is the possibility of payment as well for anyone who would be interested, and this would be a 2-part, possibly a 3-part commision: rough scetch, inked, and if willing to do so, colored. However this commission might be a bit of a challenge, giving the subject matter involved, but then again some might consider the challenge beneath their notice...in which case, sorry to have wasted your time.

Well gotta get going, need to find myself some medication, bye!!!